Many things were actually going though my mind and I dun seems to be able to organise them. Guess I will just blabber anything that comes by maybe because I just came back from dinner. Still a weee wee bit high on the wine... Good Wine !
Anyway this post is suppose to continue from the previous post where I went through the reasons on why I decided to leave. And started off bitching about the little little irritating stuffs at work....
Of course, I am not someone who will leave a job just because of those reasons. End of the day guess I am just sick and tired of where I am and whatever I am doing.
I once saw someone one posting out “原来我一直都在和陌生人吃饭” literally translated to “Actually I have been having meals with strangers”. This is very true. It becomes even sadder when you are of certain position. Some people come close to you to get favor or maybe they think they will need a favor from you at a later time. Not because they really want to be a friend.
Though being someone's boss gives you theadvantage to assign jobs you dun like to others and no one really questions what you do. To a certain extent, I also tried to maintain a subordinate-boss relationship with people around me. Having a “I am a boss face.” I dun seems to enjoying all these.
I dislike :-
- Ever single shit , irregardless whether you are aware of it a not , comes to you. And many times when it comes to you it is already in a lau-sai-but-no-paper stage. Want to clean also headache.
- Having need to listen to soap opera of staffs…. Who have all the reason in the world not to perform at work. On one hand , have to be humane, on the other hand, if they dun do the job , who do ? Neither do i like to be meddling in other people’s business. But people are coming to you cos they percieve that you could actually do something for them .
- Can’t gossip / complaint about which and which boss is a fucking moron …. Strictly saying , actually I can, but I don’t feel that it is right , as I have a duty to align the mindset of people on the ground with the goals of the bosses on top.
- Feeling that it is not right to shout out in facebook " I hate meetings " or "Keng-ing MC fo work today" when I really feel so.. Bad bad example...
- Cannot choose to side whoever I want when there is a conflict. And gossip about it after that
- Also dun like feeling obliged to keep contributing to events (wedding / birthday/ funerals/ gathering… bla bla …it’s a lot you know) for people whom I am not even close to.
Well , the list goes on .... Howevr, having said so much about what I dislike about work , actually darling is also quite right when he mentioned that I have also gain a lot throughout my 8.5 years in this company.
- I got myself degree. Never needing to be worried about the school fees, not sponsored, my own money okie!
- I got to travel every year (sadly all are asia, hard to find kakis that can travel far with you) every year considering that I am still studying.
- I managed to paid off about 20% down payment for my first house and still having money in investment enough to pay off for another 10% for the house
- I managed to save enough to spend $40,000 on something I wanted….. *erm *. Some thinks it is a waste, but I dun think so.
- I managed to save enough to pursue my masters degree
- I managed to change my trade without having to suffer a pay cut but gt a pay increment & promotion instead. The revelant experience is also very good for me
- most importantly , I got to know my HTB right here!!
Though there is many things I can do if I choose to stay, but I also wan to believe that there are more things I can do and achieve somewhere out there though I don’t know what and where it is. Furthermore, There is no end to what we wan to do... And as I always believe . The world is so big, definitely there is some place made just for you. Waiting for you to discover.
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Few days back I asked my darling, “What will you do if you are 16 again?”
Basically he said he will not go into IT line . Wondered if today he is in another industry and the same question is posted to him, will his answer be any different? I guess the answer will be the same. It all about "the grass is greener at the other side of the pasture". Then I asked myself the same question. Surprisingly I don't seems to be able to find what I am dissatisfied with my life now. Neither have I regretted any of my life choices though there are countless things I wished that I have done it differently.... There are also so many useless things and people whom i have wasted my time , energy and effort on and I wished I had used it on many other things that matters.
On the whole, guess I will choose the same path that I am taking now.... Many times in life it is not where and what you are that stops you from doing what you want. We determine and find a way to get what we want from where we were.
Though many times in life, I grumbled about why many other people have so much to start off with while I have to start things off with so much lesser. But looking back at life, I guess I have learnt and strengthen a lot.
Anyway , think I will end here with a new song .. Oh yes , my darling , this song is for you!!! Though I think you listen till sick liao .... hahaha
S.H.E - 只为爱上你
词：蓝小邪 曲：杨子朴
专辑:《就想赖着你》片尾曲
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(Rap)
如果说这世界 不够完美不够好
一定是在等我们 亲手给它变得美好
就像爱 看起来 会那么少 一定是
在等我们 一起勇敢的寻找一起找到
一片片落叶 为开出个花园
手牵手捱过整个冬天
每只蝴蝶 为了飞
为了翩翩起舞 先做一个茧
最美海岸线 总是要很蜿蜒
才足够让人忘返流连
你的身边 要不是
比天边还遥远 勇气怎么出现
当我终于住进你的心里
分享同一个世界
身后错过痛过漫长情节
都变甜美
只有我了解 这幸福感觉
美得值得去付出一切
能够遇见你认识你喜欢你爱上你
感谢我每滴眼泪
只有你明白 我有多珍贵
好得值得你为我改变
请你继续温柔 交换我 灿烂笑容
一天一天 到永远那一天
(Rap)
Yeh 爱上你有多幸运
像是天使的礼物
我们不要辜负这幸福
一定要更加幸福
如果爱 真的是 那么的少
我们就
一起守护我们得来不易的爱不被打扰
一片片落叶 为开出个花园
手牵手捱过整个冬天
每只蝴蝶 为了飞
为了翩翩起舞 先做一个茧
最美海岸线 总是要很蜿蜒
才足够让人忘返流连
你的身边 要不是
比天边还遥远 勇气怎么出现
当你终于走到我的面前
完整所有的画面
就算苦辣酸甜尝过一遍
只剩喜悦
只有我了解 这幸福感觉
美得值得去付出一切
能够遇见你认识你喜欢你爱上你
感谢我每滴眼泪
只有你明白 我有多珍贵
好得值得你为我改变
请你继续温柔 交换我 灿烂笑容
一天一天 到永远那一天
像是大雨过后晴朗的天 宽阔而耀眼
每个黎明都 需要有夜成全
往回看每兜一个圈
每一条迂回的曲线
都是为爱上你必须留的伏线
只有我了解 这幸福感觉
美得值得去付出一切
能够遇见你认识你喜欢你爱上你
感谢我每滴眼泪
只有你明白 我有多珍贵
好得值得你为我改变
请你继续温柔 交换我 灿烂笑容
一天一天 到永远那一天
(Rap)
如果说这世界 不够完美不够好
一定是在等我们 亲手给它变得美好
就像爱 看起来 会那么少 一定是
在等我们一起勇敢的寻找一起找到
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