Rediscovering Myself - Expressions

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I promise myself that I WILL pen something down tonight. …

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Recently I am getting more and more displeased and unsatisfied with the way I express myself. Somehow I just feel that I have big difficulty expressing my thoughts in good language be it writing or talking. …. Hai … why do I keep using repetitive words ? Maybe my vocab is so damn lousy??

Sometimes when I do blog-walking , there seems to be so many people out there who could pen their thoughts down quickly , and in very simple , easy to digest manner….

How on earth did they manage to do that so easily and naturally?

Even in the exam today, I realized that even though I spent so much time studying and reading the whole god-damn text. ( 300 pages is a feat for me wor… ) When it comes to penning down the answers, I couldn’t. The information IS in my head, but I simply just cannot pen them down properly.


I discovered that my thoughts are very disorganized and unsystematic… There are so many things running through my head everyday but many time when I open up a new post in blogger, I just couldn’t write down how I was feeling…. There were so many events, pictures that I took but eventually was not managed to post up any entry, or the entry ended up half written. Even some of those entry which I post, what I wrote doesn’t seems to bring out what I actually feel. There were also many times, people around me don’t seems to understand my thoughts when I talk to them


Something is missing. I need to improve.


At times , I wondered how did  I survived the UOL papers where for each question , we are required to write a 3 pages essay. And for almost every paper!


I pondered over it for sometime. I have read before that writing actually helps to organize your thoughts. Then I recalled that during my study time for the UOL papers, I was draining out pen after pen when I attempted the questions and tried to re-produce the essay.  Besides reading, I practiced writing as well.

 I reckon Stephen Covey (writer of 7 habits of effective people) is right - writing helps to organize your thoughts.

I hope I can continue writing irregardless whether people read it a not. I write for myself and not for others.


Wish me luck.