It's the last working day before we enter into the year of dragon. I was at work and feeling far from being motivated to do anything. Guess I am still feeling lousy over the exam paper on Monday , which I might have done quite badly ( Read as : I am going to fail ). Even for the assignment , I ended up with the lowest score in class despite spending lots of time working on the assignment… Sitting at my work desk feeling bored , I took out my phone and started watching bubz’s video on “paint with me”. I must say that she have a talent for arts …. Be it painting on canvas or on her face, and she can speak to inspire people all over the world. The video was on chasing her dream for arts. And I asked myself do I even have a dream ? Seems like I don’t.
To make things worse, I felt that I sucked at almost everything I do, even though I did put in effort. Seriously. I can’t think of anything that I am good in. This is sad. I suddenly felt that I dun seems to get anything right. Then I open up words document starting typing furiously , ranting and pulling out all the stuffs I successfully screwed up in life .....
Then another colleague interrupted my self –demotivating act by chatting up with me. He was also not in the mood to work, We started to chat about rubbish. After chatting with him I looked at what I typed again .. Suddenly I wondered to myself . Why am I writing such boring stuffs to further demotivate myself ? How come I seem so good at picking at all the dumb things I have done?
I spent a lunch time with some time over lunch about this .... And I figured that can’t there is any good things about things happening around me .. There must be something good about everything right ? Then I decided that I will set this new resolution for myself.
I want to change at least 10 things that I have negative feeling about into something positive . Yes I may not achieve anything but at least I should be as positive about stuffs to at least makes things not so bad … The dragon year predicts a good year so let’s gambate see how I’ll fair for this resolution I have set !
Happy new year
